12 Weeks

How far along? 12 Weeks 3 Days

Maternity clothes?  Think I’ll go buy some more today or tomorrow.

Stretch marks? Still trying to keep the existing ones from the previous at bay.

Sleep:  A little less often but still sleeping a lot.  I’m slowly getting more energy (knock on wood!)

Best moment this week: Hasn’t happened yet, but will probably be the doctor appointment!  

Miss Anything? Cappuccino

Movement: Still none that I can feel yet.  I think what I do feel is my imagination…

Food cravings:  McDonald’s hash browns with grape jelly on top (keep in mind that the grape jelly isn’t an ‘odd’ craving, I eat them that way all the time, pregnant or not!)  

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Hot Ham and Cheese sandwich didn’t really set well in my stomach the other day, which made the toilet and I get a little personal. My Food Aversions are still quite strong.

Have you started to show yet?  Hello! I’m having TWINS!  

Gender:  TBA

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: I am so happy with a little mood swing here and there.

Looking forward to:  My doctor appointment on Thursday!

Milestones:  This week their faces are becoming more defined.  Noses have taken more shape. Their tiny fingernails are now well formed on their fingers.  Most importantly in their brains, synapses are rapidly growing!  They are approximately 2.1 inches and the size of plums and weigh about .49 oz apiece! The most dramatic development this week are reflexes!  Their fingers and toes will begin to open, close, and curl.  Their eye muscles will clench, and their mouth will make sucking movements.  Apparently if I prod my abdomen, they will squirm in response!!! 

Thoughts from Daddy: It’s crazy to see the change that’s happened in just the past week, watching her belly grow is exciting!

11 Weeks

How far along? 11 Weeks 5 Days

Maternity clothes?  Yep, need to get some more cute shirts though.

Stretch marks?  Trying to keep the existing ones from the previous at bay.

Sleep:  A little less often but still sleeping a lot.

Best moment this week: John and I have been planning a lot, we love to plan!

Miss Anything? Cappuccino

Movement: Still none that I can feel yet.

Food cravings:  Krispy Kreme donuts that the husband won’t go buy me!

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Nothing really making me queasy or sick but my Food Aversions are quite strong.  Not liking Mexican or Asian food, which is a shame!

Have you started to show yet?  I’m beyond showing…. I’m huge!

Gender:  TBA

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: I am so happy with a little mood swing here and there.

Looking forward to:  My doctor appointment next week on Groundhog’s day!

Thoughts from Daddy:  Everything seems to be going so well, so far. I’m super excited, and can’t wait to feel some movement! 

Our Double Rainbow

If you are reading this then I assume you just heard the news, or you're actually just now finding out as we speak, or you already knew that we are not having 1 Rainbow Baby but 2 Rainbow Babies, giving us a Double Rainbow! 


Are you lost and not sure what a Rainbow Baby is? A Rainbow Baby is a baby that is conceived after a stillbirth, infant loss ect.

It is understood that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of any storm. When a rainbow appears, it does not mean that the storm never happened or that we are not still dealing with its aftermath. It means that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover, but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.   


I am 10 weeks today.  Let me catch you up to speed! We've known for quite awhile,  well before Christmas anyway, but we just wanted time to soak in the news ourselves and wait until after the risk factor was over, considering what happened with Raiden. We want to be extra cautious this time around.   


On December 20th, after having suspicions for two weeks, we did the ol' "home test".  JACKPOT! 

And since that wasn't "clear" enough, we brought backup! 

January 3rd, a day before our 6 Year Wedding Anniversary, was our first doctor appointment.  Everything was routine, going through the motions, until we get to the sonogram table...  And to our surprise, there were indeed 2 little peanuts in there NOT 1!  Well now, this just changed the whole ballgame around and completely throws our whole game plan off course! Just being pregnant alone puts me at high risk because of our beautiful Angel son Raiden, and now that we are seeing double, that puts me at Double High Risk!  We were planning on leaving for sunny Florida (for good) that Friday!!! But with twins on the way.... We're thinking closer to family for the duration of the pregnancy and birth is the best idea...  Florida will always be there after the babies get here! 

The next day. January 4th, our 6 Year Wedding Anniversary, and our second doctor appointment.  We had a more detailed ultrasound... Just to confirm and make sure things were running smoothly... Better safe than sorry is our motto this pregnancy!!!! The babies were healthy and happy and calculated to be 8 weeks and 3 to 4 days old.  Both of them even gave us a little dance, in which the doctor said that they were very active for being this early on in the pregnancy!  What an amazing Anniversary present!! The best! 

 In the picture, Baby A is the two on the left and Baby B is the two on the right.  I may not be right, but my guess is Baby A is a GIRL and Baby B is a BOY! But what do I know? I'm only the mommy! ;)  What's your guess?????? 

Starting today, I will have a weekly Journal Blog to keep friends and family and whoever wants to stay updated with the twins.  Anyone is more than welcome to follow us on our Double Rainbow Journey!!

How far along?   10 weeks

Maternity clothes?  Just went and bought some Tuesday! Lots!

Stretch marks?  Only the ones Raiden left me...

Sleep:  YES! Always, 3 hour naps! I'm a sleeping fool! 

Best moment this week: Buying maternity clothes, my clothes were getting too snug! 

Miss Anything? Nothing yet, I'm just so excited! 

Movement: In the ultrasound they were dancing, but nothing I can feel yet! 

Food cravings: From the beginning to now: Totino's frozen pizzas, baked potatoes

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Nothing that 'makes' me, however, I get randomly nauseous. 

Have you started to show yet:  UM YES! I do have two in there you know! 

Gender: TBA

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? Inny for now, but I have a feeling with twins, it will be an outy by the end of all of this....

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time:  ECSTATIC! With a little mood swing here and there.

Looking forward to:  Having two beautiful healthy babies! 

Negative Nancy, Go Home!

Sometimes I get so frustrated when I read what people say about their kids, families, husbands ect.  At times it's just down right annoying... I'm not saying that absolutely no one can vent, or complain about anything in their life, and shitting rainbows and butterflies are the way to go. No sir.  I like to complain or bitch, it's one of my specialties.  What I am saying is simply this:

STOP TAKING THE GREAT THINGS IN LIFE FOR GRANTED!

You are making an ass out of yourself when you bitch about your husband/wife and how big of a dick he/she is to you and how he receives but there's no giving back, boo hoo, you know who you are. 1. No one gives a shit that you want to be a pissy patty.  2.  Get over yourself! - I love my husband to the moon and times over.  Is he perfect? NO.  Do we have our disagreements? YES.  But I do not talk shit on him and make him look like he's the dirt under my shoes.  He's my equal, my other half, my best friend, and my soul mate.  Yes, sometimes I complain about the silly things he does that frustrate me but at the end of the day I still love him more than ever.   If anything I put him on a pedestal for many things;  being the man in my life, the things he has done and sacrificed for this country.  Just because your spouse hasn't fought for this country still doesn't give you an excuse or the right to treat them like crap either.  They took you as their own, maybe even took in kids that aren't even theirs, maybe you have children together, they provides for your family, and work hard to make a living or to keep the household running at a normal pace.  If anything you should be worshiping the ground they walk on.  Do your wifely/husband duties and Honor and Obey. And for God's sake, wo/man, stop taking your husband/wife for granted!!!

Complaining about your children is my biggest pet-peeve... And that goes for anything that has to do with children...  I'll keep this short and sweet, not everyone has the luxury of children, and sometimes when these people see you treating or talking to your children badly, they get very angry.  You look like ignorant scum and you are definitely not teaching your children good morals or characteristics.  Children learn by example, what example do you think you are?  And this also goes for your "baby daddy/mama drama"    Even though you may not know it, surfacing this drama still affects your kids.  Grow up and be the bigger parent.  Who gives a shit if you're not getting child support, or the kids never see the other parent. That just shows who's classier, unless you cause more drama, or bitch about it to everyone, well then that's not classy at all!

In conclusion, I just think that the problem with society today, is that most people really need a humbling.  -Humble, adj. 1. Not proud or arrogant; modest: to be humble although successful: courteously respectful- They should be grateful for what they have because somewhere out there, there is ALWAYS someone who has it worse....  Always someone out there who longs to see their husband everyday, who worries day and night if they will ever see their husband again. And there's always someone out there who wishes she could just hold her child in her arms again, just waiting for the day they meet again.

So I guess what I am trying to say is just:
DON'T TAKE ANYTHING IN LIFE FOR GRANTED! Embrace it, it's not worth the drama.

As always, Thanks for tuning in-
MaiTai

The Burtality of my Honesty

I guess you can say that I am a brutally honest person.  Apparently, at times, being this way gets me into trouble.  Or at least it is offensive to particular people who cannot take anything I say with a grain of salt.  That is just the kind of person I am. For those getting to know me, have probably figured it out already, and those who have known me for years are aware and accept that I am, indeed, an outspoken person. I am brash but I am not fake, so I feel like I shouldn't have to accomodate someone else and sugar coat what I have to say because to me, that is being a fake person... If you must sugar coat something for the sake of others feelings, that is not being true to yourself or anyone else for that matter. I'm not saying that I relish in hurting someone's feelings, but what I am saying is that when it comes to expressing my feelings, I'm not going to hold back and I will express how I feel because I am that kind of person... If that is something that another does not fancy, then they should take it or leave because I'm not going to change who I am as person because they cannot take my feelings with a grain of salt.  Whether anyone likes it or not, I'm still going to do ME. However, taking everything I say and annalyzing it or twisting it around to make me look like a horrible person probably isn't wise either... I express my feelings about a plethora of different subjects, what can I say, I'm a very opinionated person.  But if you sit there and take every little thing that I have ever said, knit pick at it and annalyze it because for some reason you think there is some kind of hidden meaning in there somewhere, then you're wasting your time.  I say what I mean and I mean what I say, and there ARE NO HIDDEN FEES!  If I confide in  you and complain about something or someone, then don't assume that what I said about that particular something/someone applies to you! It probably has nothing to do with you, so don't for one second get a guilty conscience and think that I would think the exact same thing about you.  That's rediculous!  And we all know where "assuming" gets you, and if not let me tell you.  When you assume something, all it does is make an "Ass" out of "U" and "ME".  Or taking something I said 2 years ago and turning it around to make it about you.  Something that had absolutely nothing to do with you at all, you weren't even there, I just told you the story because it was about a shop owner treating valued customers like shit.  But for some reason, even that can be twisted and misconstrued to be about one's self.  I really don't understand how that even comes into play.  But from now on, I choose who I say what to... From now on, certain people I confided in will no longer get their ear full, even though they too fill mine with nonsense and expression of their own opinion, I will no longer express any such thing to them... It is too tiring if I will have to go back through every single thing that I said months, even years, ago and explain because they sat on every word and made it about them.  No, from now on I will only be cordial to people of this nature and keep my opinions to myself.  It's not worth my time.  They probably won't like it, but you reap what you sew.  I treasure my friends, and listen to everything they have to say with an optimistic attitude because I put their feelings first, especially if they have strong feelings on a certain subject.  I never twist and alter their words to be about me.  And I can't believe a friend would do that to me... But what's done is done, and I'm moving on.  They will probably think I'm quite a boring person with nothing to say... I have lots to say, just not to them! We will see how far their gossip goes, when I don't produce any opinions anymore! Wahahaha

Thanks for tuning in-
And remember, Don't Get it Twisted!
-Maitai

Wa Wa Wa Weight Watchers??????

Well I finally caved and joined weight watchers for a whopping 17 bucks a month... Aye Aye Aye what the hell have I gotten myself into?!!! It's okay though, it's gonna work out... My main problem is control... I'm the epitome of a Foodie. I love me some good food... And I'll eat me some good food... 'Til I can no longer see me some good food! I'm not kidding... I have a problem with stopping when I'm satisfied.  Hell, I have a problem stopping when I'm overly full! So that is the main reason I joined.  That and I need to shed a few unwanted pounds.. But mainly to help with my portion control because mine, is out of control! My workout routine is pretty good, but the food is holding me back... Another thing that is holding me back is the support system.. Or, lack there of!  I have a buddy for workouts, but that only goes so far when there is no effort put forth to keep me motivated and wanting to continue.  In fact I got into a fight about it with this buddy yesterday... I just let it all out on the table, that I was pissed, and not satisfied with our so called pitiful workout plan, or like I have mentioned "lack there of".  So I turned to a new leaf, and joined a community where I can pick and choose the friends, groups, and challenges... I can pick friends who are in similar to myself. ie: Military wives, Marine Corps wives in particular, and a different bread of woman that are very important to me and are more than likely feeling and going through what I am going through, Infant Loss mothers.  I think all in all the support system that WW provides will be better in the long run than what I've got going on now...  First week with WW and it's been pretty interesting in the first 3 days. So far so good... But then again... It's only Day 3! Hopefully I can stick with it, change my lifestyle, get my portion habit under control, and make amazing friends as I go.  I guess what I'm trying to say is; Wish me LUCK!

Thanks for tuning in!
-Mai Tai

Just kiddddddding

I've notice that in a couple of recent blogs, I keep telling my readers to 'look for more blogs' or 'I'm going to be blogging more'..  Well, JUST KIDDDDDDDDING! Okay, I wasn't just kidding really, but it seems that I've became one of those "Fibbers".  I fibbed... I know horrible... I've been meaning to get at this damn thing, but I just keep finding myself busy... Well not really busy, just wrapped up in my makeup... I've been obsessed with coming up with new looks.  What did you say? Convert my makeup into my blogs?!! What a marvelous idea! I'd say I get on that but I'd just be kidddddding! Maybe I'll try it.. Then I can do both AT THE SAME TIMMMMMME! Come one  Mai get on it! On the bright side, I've been making money from my makeup... That's always fun... Okay, I'll try to blog to my bloggity more! Gah, get off my back!

As always- Thanks for tuning in!

Love you all!
~MaiTai