Jun 14, 2011

The Burtality of my Honesty


I guess you can say that I am a brutally honest person.  Apparently, at times, being this way gets me into trouble.  Or at least it is offensive to particular people who cannot take anything I say with a grain of salt.  That is just the kind of person I am. For those getting to know me, have probably figured it out already, and those who have known me for years are aware and accept that I am, indeed, an outspoken person. I am brash but I am not fake, so I feel like I shouldn't have to accomodate someone else and sugar coat what I have to say because to me, that is being a fake person... If you must sugar coat something for the sake of others feelings, that is not being true to yourself or anyone else for that matter. I'm not saying that I relish in hurting someone's feelings, but what I am saying is that when it comes to expressing my feelings, I'm not going to hold back and I will express how I feel because I am that kind of person... If that is something that another does not fancy, then they should take it or leave because I'm not going to change who I am as person because they cannot take my feelings with a grain of salt.  Whether anyone likes it or not, I'm still going to do ME. However, taking everything I say and annalyzing it or twisting it around to make me look like a horrible person probably isn't wise either... I express my feelings about a plethora of different subjects, what can I say, I'm a very opinionated person.  But if you sit there and take every little thing that I have ever said, knit pick at it and annalyze it because for some reason you think there is some kind of hidden meaning in there somewhere, then you're wasting your time.  I say what I mean and I mean what I say, and there ARE NO HIDDEN FEES!  If I confide in  you and complain about something or someone, then don't assume that what I said about that particular something/someone applies to you! It probably has nothing to do with you, so don't for one second get a guilty conscience and think that I would think the exact same thing about you.  That's rediculous!  And we all know where "assuming" gets you, and if not let me tell you.  When you assume something, all it does is make an "Ass" out of "U" and "ME".  Or taking something I said 2 years ago and turning it around to make it about you.  Something that had absolutely nothing to do with you at all, you weren't even there, I just told you the story because it was about a shop owner treating valued customers like shit.  But for some reason, even that can be twisted and misconstrued to be about one's self.  I really don't understand how that even comes into play.  But from now on, I choose who I say what to... From now on, certain people I confided in will no longer get their ear full, even though they too fill mine with nonsense and expression of their own opinion, I will no longer express any such thing to them... It is too tiring if I will have to go back through every single thing that I said months, even years, ago and explain because they sat on every word and made it about them.  No, from now on I will only be cordial to people of this nature and keep my opinions to myself.  It's not worth my time.  They probably won't like it, but you reap what you sew.  I treasure my friends, and listen to everything they have to say with an optimistic attitude because I put their feelings first, especially if they have strong feelings on a certain subject.  I never twist and alter their words to be about me.  And I can't believe a friend would do that to me... But what's done is done, and I'm moving on.  They will probably think I'm quite a boring person with nothing to say... I have lots to say, just not to them! We will see how far their gossip goes, when I don't produce any opinions anymore! Wahahaha

Thanks for tuning in-
And remember, Don't Get it Twisted!
-Maitai

Jun 7, 2011

Wa Wa Wa Weight Watchers??????

Well I finally caved and joined weight watchers for a whopping 17 bucks a month... Aye Aye Aye what the hell have I gotten myself into?!!! It's okay though, it's gonna work out... My main problem is control... I'm the epitome of a Foodie. I love me some good food... And I'll eat me some good food... 'Til I can no longer see me some good food! I'm not kidding... I have a problem with stopping when I'm satisfied.  Hell, I have a problem stopping when I'm overly full! So that is the main reason I joined.  That and I need to shed a few unwanted pounds.. But mainly to help with my portion control because mine, is out of control! My workout routine is pretty good, but the food is holding me back... Another thing that is holding me back is the support system.. Or, lack there of!  I have a buddy for workouts, but that only goes so far when there is no effort put forth to keep me motivated and wanting to continue.  In fact I got into a fight about it with this buddy yesterday... I just let it all out on the table, that I was pissed, and not satisfied with our so called pitiful workout plan, or like I have mentioned "lack there of".  So I turned to a new leaf, and joined a community where I can pick and choose the friends, groups, and challenges... I can pick friends who are in similar to myself. ie: Military wives, Marine Corps wives in particular, and a different bread of woman that are very important to me and are more than likely feeling and going through what I am going through, Infant Loss mothers.  I think all in all the support system that WW provides will be better in the long run than what I've got going on now...  First week with WW and it's been pretty interesting in the first 3 days. So far so good... But then again... It's only Day 3! Hopefully I can stick with it, change my lifestyle, get my portion habit under control, and make amazing friends as I go.  I guess what I'm trying to say is; Wish me LUCK!

Thanks for tuning in!
-Mai Tai

May 15, 2011

Just kiddddddding

I've notice that in a couple of recent blogs, I keep telling my readers to 'look for more blogs' or 'I'm going to be blogging more'..  Well, JUST KIDDDDDDDDING! Okay, I wasn't just kidding really, but it seems that I've became one of those "Fibbers".  I fibbed... I know horrible... I've been meaning to get at this damn thing, but I just keep finding myself busy... Well not really busy, just wrapped up in my makeup... I've been obsessed with coming up with new looks.  What did you say? Convert my makeup into my blogs?!! What a marvelous idea! I'd say I get on that but I'd just be kidddddding! Maybe I'll try it.. Then I can do both AT THE SAME TIMMMMMME! Come one  Mai get on it! On the bright side, I've been making money from my makeup... That's always fun... Okay, I'll try to blog to my bloggity more! Gah, get off my back!

As always- Thanks for tuning in!

Love you all!
~MaiTai

Apr 11, 2011

The Vultures of Facebook

Have you ever noticed that everyone is a vulture on Facebook?  I thought that Facebook was a social network to get in touch with people in your lives that you don't get to see anymore, and to catch up with good friends.  These days, it's nothing but a hole full of drama trying to suck you in and never letting go.  More people are there to bash one another back and forth than they are to be happy for the other.  Most people are full of envy and just don't want to see anyone else happy but themselves, so the best thing they can come up with is to dog them on site.  I know, I have no room to talk, for I too have fell victim to the malicious game of Facebook! I started letting FB control me instead of me controlling my FB.  It's pathetic really.  I found myself checking it everyday several times a day.  And for what? To check out the latest gossip of who was fighting with who that day.  I'm not saying that everyone's life should be full of rainbows and butterflies, because I know that people just have down right bad days... That's fine... Complain about your bad days, but stop trash talking other people... It's just a horrible habit that people start to fall under because their peers are doing it, and I am Exhibit A falling under the pressure of my peers.  So you want to know what I did? I deactivated my FB account!!! That's right, you read right!!!! I D.E.Activated the damn thing!  Just for a few days, until I can fully function a full day without it... I honestly think it's for the best... Those FBVultures are nothing but trouble! Let me tell you though, it's been hard! I've found myself numerous times already trying to go to my ap on my phone, but luckily it doesn't log me in automatically anymore, so that's a sign that says, "Hey,  you don't need to be on here." I'ts helped, but I admit I'm having a little withdrawals, and it's only been an hour or so.... But that's okay, that's what I need... I need to do a lot of "self reflecting" anyhow... I don't like the person I have become.... I'm not the feisty, hold nothing back, speak her mind kinda girl lately, and that's just not me... So I think this time off FB will help me find me again as well.  Drama free, and me again! That's what I'm looking for! And by the time I log back on to the ol' FB page, I'll be a new person, new positive person I should say!

In the mean time, look for more blogs! I plan on doing that a lot more, now that there's no distraction!

Thanks for tuning in!! -And remember, if FB has you down, just don't log in or delete it for a couple days, it wouldn't hurt to self reflect yourself either!!!

-MaiTai

Feb 20, 2011

Wicked Stepmother





 I really can't stand mine... Better known as my father's wife.  "Wicked Stepmother" is too much of a compliment...  She has litterally kept me from being in my younger sister's life during her Senior year of high school... Had she not caused drama with me, I wouldn't be standing here as angry as I am... But here I am, pissed the fuck off! I wish I had one of those apples that everyone seems to have in every classical Disney movie... That would definitely come in handy... But life goes on... I stear clear, and live my life to the fullest without the Wicked...  I do wish like every fairy tale ending, that I will indeed have my sister back in my life for good... In this scenario, patience is a virtue!

-MaiTai

Dec 31, 2010

2011 New Years Resolution

Making a resolution is the act of "resolving" something.  Most people have made resolutions to better their life in one way or another.  But I have past the point in my life where my life doesn't need resolving.  In the past 5 years I have had the most hostile trials that life could throw at me,  I think most of you know what these are and there is no need to address them.  I can honestly say that I have experienced more in life at the age of 24 than most grown people at the age of 50 can say for themselves.  John and I will be married for 5 years in 4 days and we get along better than most marriages in their 20 years,  we even beat the odds of a military marriage (thank you Raiden) and that says a lot.  Only us and 1 other couple are still married out of all the marriages in Johns last unit.  We are more financially stable than over 80% of the people we know.  We are literally happy and healthy for the first time in a long time and there really isn't anything I would like to resolve in the up coming year.. I  am so grateful and thankful for what I have that I could not ask for anything better.  Why in the world would I want to fix that?! --There was a time when I would have never thought I would say anything remotely close to that!!

So after long contemplation, my new years resolution is just this:  To live life... 

With that being said, I hope that you don't take the things in life for granted and that you can accept the things you cannot change and maybe next year your life won't need "resolving" either! Be thankful for what you have because someone out there might just have it worse than you, I know because I have been there...


Now let's ring in the new year right!!!!
BOTTOMS UP!!!!
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