Open mouth + insert foot = You're being mean.

It really bothers me when people act like this is my first pregnancy or that I've never been pregnant before.... You know, the 'know it alls'.  The people that think they need to tell me how it is, what to do, and what to expect during the pregnancy process and after. The people that make catty comments that make me feel like I'm ignorant to the pregnancy life or that I'm a non existent mother.  News flash: This isn't my first run through the park, and I am a proud mother to an Angel, and now twins.  That's 3 children my friends. Though, some people I give credit to, they do not realize that they say such hurtful things.  I know they are just trying to help.  But others, it's down right obvious that they meant what they said.  Here's my favorite(sarcasm) example:  "Motherhood is the best thing in the world! Not that you're not a mother, but you know what I mean.... It's different."  Yes, people actually have said this to me... I can count a handful of people right now off of the top of my head that has said these exact words to me since finding out I was pregnant. Really? Do people really not think before they speak? Quite frankly, I'm getting tired of it. Ironically that is the comment I hear the most amongst other comments that have to do with pregnancy like:  "Welcome to pregnancy."  "Well, you should do this."  "Expect this." "You better get ready for labor."  And it's not these comments alone, it's the way people say them to me like I just have no idea what I got myself into.  And when I respond with "Oh, I know", they keep on like no, I don't know.  And then when I say something along the lines of "Well, when I was pregnant with Raiden..." They don't want to hear it.  It has pushed me to the point where I really don't want to hear what these people have to say.  I am open for advice, especially from mother's of multiples.  But I am not open to hear what I should or shouldn't do during this pregnancy, what to expect, and what I should or shouldn't do when they arrive such as feeding, diapering ect. I have a doctor for the duration of the pregnancy, that I'm pretty sure knows what he's doing... I have all my trust in him, beings that this is a "high risk" pregnancy.  So I think I'll be fine without the catty, know it all comments.  And as for after the babies arrive... I'm going to do things my way.  I do not care if you think that I am choosing the "hard way" to do things, especially with twins... It is what I want to do, it is what I've been planning on doing, and it is what I WILL do.  I'm sorry, you disagree.  And as for the whole 'I'm not a real mother' comments. I grew a baby boy in my belly for 8 months 4 years ago, I gave birth to him, I held him and loved him, and then I had to say goodbye.  So yes, I am a real mother.  No, I don't get to see him grow and no the twins will never meet their big brother, but all the same, I'm a mother just as you.  And for the record, I think that being an Angel Mommy is a way better title than being JUST a mom.  Lucky for me I get the best of both worlds and get to be both.

Words of advice: before anyone tries to give someone else advice, THINK before you speak and make sure what you are about to say isn't going to hurt that person and try not to be a know it all.  I know it's hard for some of you, but try it, you might actually not get a catty response back!  Nice, thoughtful and supportive advice goes a lot further than mean hurtful comments.

And for the record again, this was not a rant blog, it was more of getting my feelings out there so my readers will remember this the next time they are talking to someone who is in similar shoes as I am. :)

<3 Mai

15 Weeks

How far along? 15 Weeks 5 Days

Maternity clothes?  Yep.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Sleep:  A little less often but still sleeping a lot.

Best moment this week:  Listening to the Prenatal Listener is always the best part of every week. 

Miss Anything? Tanning. 

Movement: There is! It’s very light, but it’s there! 

Food cravings: Potatoes, lots of potatoes.  

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Nope.  But, Hello Heartburn!   

Have you started to show yet?  Hello! I’m having TWINS! 

Gender:  TBA maybe on the 1^st!  

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Been really moody this week…. oops 

Looking forward to: Next Thursday, the 1^st.  I get to see the Womb Mates again!

Milestones:  This week, lots of hair called lanugo is growing all over their bodies. They can sense light even though their eyelids are still fused shut.   Taste buds and blood vessels are forming! They are approximately 4.0 inches and the size of oranges and weigh around 2.5 oz. apiece.

Thoughts from Daddy: Well, it’s now in the second trimester, and boy, I tell you what! Mooooood Swiiiings have made their monstrous appearance in the last week lol. Nothing we can’t handle though. I can’t wait until March 1^st.

14 Weeks

How far along? 14 Weeks 5 Days

Maternity clothes?  Yep.

Stretch marks? No new ones.

Sleep:  A little less often but still sleeping a lot.

Best moment this week:  Did some window-shopping to plan, and listening to the Prenatal Listener.  

Miss Anything? Not really anything this week.  

Movement:  I think there is a little bit, indeed. 

Food cravings: Dr. Pepper and my food aversions are getting much better.   

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Nope, I did well this week!   

Have you started to show yet?  Hello! I’m having TWINS! 

Gender:  TBA maybe on the 1^st!  

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: Well, today I had a major mood swing at Taco Bell when they got my order wrong and then told me they couldn’t fix the order without the receipt that John just threw away.  Let’s just say they took what they messed up and fixed the order pretty quick.  

Looking forward to: Dinner, I’m hungry! :)

Milestones:  This week their faces can make expressions like a squint or a frown.  They are possibly starting to grow hair on their heads or on their face, such as eyebrows.  They are approximately 3.4 inches and the size of lemons and weigh around 1.5 oz apiece. 

Thoughts from Daddy: Same ol same ol… EXCEPT that my big brother Chad and his wife Afton just had their baby boy Banks this week! Going and visiting the three of them in the hospital this week was a huge teaser. I never mounted the courage to pick up the little guy while I was there though, lol. I’m saving that for mine.

13 Weeks

How far along? 13 Weeks 3 Days

Maternity clothes?  Yep.

Stretch marks? Still trying to keep the existing ones from the previous at bay.

Sleep:  A little less often but still sleeping a lot.

Best moment this week: Got to see the womb mates again Thursday at our appointment! It was so fun.  The baby that we suspect as a boy was really hyper, throwing punches and elbows.  He even spun around really fast like a crazy baby.  We also got a Prenatal Listener this week! So excited that we can listen to them whenever we want.  Great stress reliever for the worried Angel Mommy.  

Miss Anything? Getting my tan on.

Movement: Still none that I can feel yet.  I think what I do feel is my imagination…

Food cravings: Not really any special food cravings this week, but my Food Aversions are slowly subsiding.  

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Cream Cheese really didn’t set well with me this week when I tried to eat a cheese ball and some pinwheels. 

Have you started to show yet?  Hello! I’m having TWINS! 

Gender:  TBA maybe on the 1^st!  

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: We’re good!

Looking forward to:  Some more shopping! Oh, and getting my prenatal yoga DVD’s!  

Milestones:  This week their bodies are starting to catch up and grow more proportional to their heads.  They are able to move and flex the arms and legs because their motor skills are starting to work.   Fingerprints have formed on their tiny fingertips.  They are approximately 2.9 inches and the size of peaches and weigh about .81 oz apiece!

Thoughts from Daddy: Scattered thoughts of excitement and anticipation. Some fear is nestled beneath the other two, but growing ever more confident of my parenting potential.

12 Weeks

How far along? 12 Weeks 3 Days

Maternity clothes?  Think I’ll go buy some more today or tomorrow.

Stretch marks? Still trying to keep the existing ones from the previous at bay.

Sleep:  A little less often but still sleeping a lot.  I’m slowly getting more energy (knock on wood!)

Best moment this week: Hasn’t happened yet, but will probably be the doctor appointment!  

Miss Anything? Cappuccino

Movement: Still none that I can feel yet.  I think what I do feel is my imagination…

Food cravings:  McDonald’s hash browns with grape jelly on top (keep in mind that the grape jelly isn’t an ‘odd’ craving, I eat them that way all the time, pregnant or not!)  

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Hot Ham and Cheese sandwich didn’t really set well in my stomach the other day, which made the toilet and I get a little personal. My Food Aversions are still quite strong.

Have you started to show yet?  Hello! I’m having TWINS!  

Gender:  TBA

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: I am so happy with a little mood swing here and there.

Looking forward to:  My doctor appointment on Thursday!

Milestones:  This week their faces are becoming more defined.  Noses have taken more shape. Their tiny fingernails are now well formed on their fingers.  Most importantly in their brains, synapses are rapidly growing!  They are approximately 2.1 inches and the size of plums and weigh about .49 oz apiece! The most dramatic development this week are reflexes!  Their fingers and toes will begin to open, close, and curl.  Their eye muscles will clench, and their mouth will make sucking movements.  Apparently if I prod my abdomen, they will squirm in response!!! 

Thoughts from Daddy: It’s crazy to see the change that’s happened in just the past week, watching her belly grow is exciting!

11 Weeks

How far along? 11 Weeks 5 Days

Maternity clothes?  Yep, need to get some more cute shirts though.

Stretch marks?  Trying to keep the existing ones from the previous at bay.

Sleep:  A little less often but still sleeping a lot.

Best moment this week: John and I have been planning a lot, we love to plan!

Miss Anything? Cappuccino

Movement: Still none that I can feel yet.

Food cravings:  Krispy Kreme donuts that the husband won’t go buy me!

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Nothing really making me queasy or sick but my Food Aversions are quite strong.  Not liking Mexican or Asian food, which is a shame!

Have you started to show yet?  I’m beyond showing…. I’m huge!

Gender:  TBA

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time: I am so happy with a little mood swing here and there.

Looking forward to:  My doctor appointment next week on Groundhog’s day!

Thoughts from Daddy:  Everything seems to be going so well, so far. I’m super excited, and can’t wait to feel some movement! 

Our Double Rainbow

If you are reading this then I assume you just heard the news, or you're actually just now finding out as we speak, or you already knew that we are not having 1 Rainbow Baby but 2 Rainbow Babies, giving us a Double Rainbow! 


Are you lost and not sure what a Rainbow Baby is? A Rainbow Baby is a baby that is conceived after a stillbirth, infant loss ect.

It is understood that the beauty of a rainbow does not negate the ravages of any storm. When a rainbow appears, it does not mean that the storm never happened or that we are not still dealing with its aftermath. It means that something beautiful and full of light has appeared in the midst of the darkness and clouds. Storm clouds may still hover, but the rainbow provides a counterbalance of color, energy and hope.   


I am 10 weeks today.  Let me catch you up to speed! We've known for quite awhile,  well before Christmas anyway, but we just wanted time to soak in the news ourselves and wait until after the risk factor was over, considering what happened with Raiden. We want to be extra cautious this time around.   


On December 20th, after having suspicions for two weeks, we did the ol' "home test".  JACKPOT! 

And since that wasn't "clear" enough, we brought backup! 

January 3rd, a day before our 6 Year Wedding Anniversary, was our first doctor appointment.  Everything was routine, going through the motions, until we get to the sonogram table...  And to our surprise, there were indeed 2 little peanuts in there NOT 1!  Well now, this just changed the whole ballgame around and completely throws our whole game plan off course! Just being pregnant alone puts me at high risk because of our beautiful Angel son Raiden, and now that we are seeing double, that puts me at Double High Risk!  We were planning on leaving for sunny Florida (for good) that Friday!!! But with twins on the way.... We're thinking closer to family for the duration of the pregnancy and birth is the best idea...  Florida will always be there after the babies get here! 

The next day. January 4th, our 6 Year Wedding Anniversary, and our second doctor appointment.  We had a more detailed ultrasound... Just to confirm and make sure things were running smoothly... Better safe than sorry is our motto this pregnancy!!!! The babies were healthy and happy and calculated to be 8 weeks and 3 to 4 days old.  Both of them even gave us a little dance, in which the doctor said that they were very active for being this early on in the pregnancy!  What an amazing Anniversary present!! The best! 

 In the picture, Baby A is the two on the left and Baby B is the two on the right.  I may not be right, but my guess is Baby A is a GIRL and Baby B is a BOY! But what do I know? I'm only the mommy! ;)  What's your guess?????? 

Starting today, I will have a weekly Journal Blog to keep friends and family and whoever wants to stay updated with the twins.  Anyone is more than welcome to follow us on our Double Rainbow Journey!!

How far along?   10 weeks

Maternity clothes?  Just went and bought some Tuesday! Lots!

Stretch marks?  Only the ones Raiden left me...

Sleep:  YES! Always, 3 hour naps! I'm a sleeping fool! 

Best moment this week: Buying maternity clothes, my clothes were getting too snug! 

Miss Anything? Nothing yet, I'm just so excited! 

Movement: In the ultrasound they were dancing, but nothing I can feel yet! 

Food cravings: From the beginning to now: Totino's frozen pizzas, baked potatoes

Anything making you queasy or sick:  Nothing that 'makes' me, however, I get randomly nauseous. 

Have you started to show yet:  UM YES! I do have two in there you know! 

Gender: TBA

Labor Signs: None

Belly Button in or out? Inny for now, but I have a feeling with twins, it will be an outy by the end of all of this....

Wedding rings on or off? On

Happy or Moody most of the time:  ECSTATIC! With a little mood swing here and there.

Looking forward to:  Having two beautiful healthy babies!