Jun 14, 2011

The Burtality of my Honesty


I guess you can say that I am a brutally honest person.  Apparently, at times, being this way gets me into trouble.  Or at least it is offensive to particular people who cannot take anything I say with a grain of salt.  That is just the kind of person I am. For those getting to know me, have probably figured it out already, and those who have known me for years are aware and accept that I am, indeed, an outspoken person. I am brash but I am not fake, so I feel like I shouldn't have to accomodate someone else and sugar coat what I have to say because to me, that is being a fake person... If you must sugar coat something for the sake of others feelings, that is not being true to yourself or anyone else for that matter. I'm not saying that I relish in hurting someone's feelings, but what I am saying is that when it comes to expressing my feelings, I'm not going to hold back and I will express how I feel because I am that kind of person... If that is something that another does not fancy, then they should take it or leave because I'm not going to change who I am as person because they cannot take my feelings with a grain of salt.  Whether anyone likes it or not, I'm still going to do ME. However, taking everything I say and annalyzing it or twisting it around to make me look like a horrible person probably isn't wise either... I express my feelings about a plethora of different subjects, what can I say, I'm a very opinionated person.  But if you sit there and take every little thing that I have ever said, knit pick at it and annalyze it because for some reason you think there is some kind of hidden meaning in there somewhere, then you're wasting your time.  I say what I mean and I mean what I say, and there ARE NO HIDDEN FEES!  If I confide in  you and complain about something or someone, then don't assume that what I said about that particular something/someone applies to you! It probably has nothing to do with you, so don't for one second get a guilty conscience and think that I would think the exact same thing about you.  That's rediculous!  And we all know where "assuming" gets you, and if not let me tell you.  When you assume something, all it does is make an "Ass" out of "U" and "ME".  Or taking something I said 2 years ago and turning it around to make it about you.  Something that had absolutely nothing to do with you at all, you weren't even there, I just told you the story because it was about a shop owner treating valued customers like shit.  But for some reason, even that can be twisted and misconstrued to be about one's self.  I really don't understand how that even comes into play.  But from now on, I choose who I say what to... From now on, certain people I confided in will no longer get their ear full, even though they too fill mine with nonsense and expression of their own opinion, I will no longer express any such thing to them... It is too tiring if I will have to go back through every single thing that I said months, even years, ago and explain because they sat on every word and made it about them.  No, from now on I will only be cordial to people of this nature and keep my opinions to myself.  It's not worth my time.  They probably won't like it, but you reap what you sew.  I treasure my friends, and listen to everything they have to say with an optimistic attitude because I put their feelings first, especially if they have strong feelings on a certain subject.  I never twist and alter their words to be about me.  And I can't believe a friend would do that to me... But what's done is done, and I'm moving on.  They will probably think I'm quite a boring person with nothing to say... I have lots to say, just not to them! We will see how far their gossip goes, when I don't produce any opinions anymore! Wahahaha

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And remember, Don't Get it Twisted!
-Maitai

Jun 7, 2011

Wa Wa Wa Weight Watchers??????

Well I finally caved and joined weight watchers for a whopping 17 bucks a month... Aye Aye Aye what the hell have I gotten myself into?!!! It's okay though, it's gonna work out... My main problem is control... I'm the epitome of a Foodie. I love me some good food... And I'll eat me some good food... 'Til I can no longer see me some good food! I'm not kidding... I have a problem with stopping when I'm satisfied.  Hell, I have a problem stopping when I'm overly full! So that is the main reason I joined.  That and I need to shed a few unwanted pounds.. But mainly to help with my portion control because mine, is out of control! My workout routine is pretty good, but the food is holding me back... Another thing that is holding me back is the support system.. Or, lack there of!  I have a buddy for workouts, but that only goes so far when there is no effort put forth to keep me motivated and wanting to continue.  In fact I got into a fight about it with this buddy yesterday... I just let it all out on the table, that I was pissed, and not satisfied with our so called pitiful workout plan, or like I have mentioned "lack there of".  So I turned to a new leaf, and joined a community where I can pick and choose the friends, groups, and challenges... I can pick friends who are in similar to myself. ie: Military wives, Marine Corps wives in particular, and a different bread of woman that are very important to me and are more than likely feeling and going through what I am going through, Infant Loss mothers.  I think all in all the support system that WW provides will be better in the long run than what I've got going on now...  First week with WW and it's been pretty interesting in the first 3 days. So far so good... But then again... It's only Day 3! Hopefully I can stick with it, change my lifestyle, get my portion habit under control, and make amazing friends as I go.  I guess what I'm trying to say is; Wish me LUCK!

Thanks for tuning in!
-Mai Tai
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